it's 6 am now. sweet!!! i stayed up whole night in computer room doing my assessment,and preparing for tomorrow's test, how sweet is my second year?

current mood:
i want my christmas holiday to start now!!!
i want to run away from tests, assessments

i can't wait for the holiday to come:

can't wait to see esther, ( i know u don't like this but i just can't help it, u know how it feels like when u have something in your chest, you just need to get it out: I LOVE U SOOOO Much GIRL!!) we celebrate ur bday when we meet up k? ( i have test on ur bday, which is my mum's bday as well)

can't wait to see ting wei,a naughty girl (we both know this XD ) but a sister, we just have too many things in common, can't wait to go shopping with u!! ( i can't say i love u to ting wei eventhough i 12 later meatball angry)

and i can't wait to go to london!! christmas dinner in min ken's house will be awesome!! cause the master chef Master Wong ( wong fei hong's great grand son) will be preparing the dinner with his assistant (me)

note to voon yuan: u see i treat u so nice, don't make me sleep on top floor k? please..amd please please please don't forget to open the door for me.

and ai woon will be coming too, aiwoon so long didn't see. i want to go to portobello market!! i want to eat cake, china town eat dim dum, westfield try malaysia restauirant, meet yinnie...my mind is in london already

for some reason i miss esther and elsie...

i came across this 2 sentences from someone's blog, she says:

"Sometimes u just want things to go your way. And wonder why it didnt."

this is what i feel sometimes.

Sometimes u wonder why're you so silly thinking of all that could've been or why am i in the first place thinking of "sometimes".

just like how i wish time can turn back but is impossible. there was one morning, i woke up thinking of what i've been through this year, and wishing if i could turn the time back. Things that happened to me are the consequences of my immaturity and inexperienced. well, i can't turn the time back, but looking at the bright side, what happened this year ain't so bad, at least i knew i learnt, and i grew up. cheers!!! XD
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I want a dog!!! a real puppy to accompany me while i'm in uk. i want a yellow lab puppy... just love them so much especially when i'm reading "marley and me".

yesterday was really fun, went to Sepang Goldcoast with vy, aiwoon, aaron. The water isn't clear, the sand wasn't so smooth, i think Redang will definately be better, but this is not far from KL so nothing to complaint. We had seafood feast at night by the sea..for those who know me well, i love seafood very much, especially prawn, crab and oyster. they are just yummy!!~

just only realized it was 12 years ago since i last touched seawater with my bare foot, it's nice feeling it again~ but i was freaked out by the little crabbies's habitat, there are so many holes on the beach...

i scream everytime i feel those tiny crabbies crawling under the water, i am scare that they'll take revenge on me for eating of their ancestors. " I am sorry , crab, please don't sting me"

vy was quite funny, i made a video of him tasting the seawater, I called it 16th Malaysia, for those who watched 15 Malaysia should know the meaning, he kept saying if he has diarrhoea later he'll come n find me. =.=' . i shall facebook the video.



thanks Aaron for driving us, and all 3 of them for the great day!

last night i dreamt of my high school mates, i have not see them much since we graduate from high school, truly miss them now, i'm looking forward to tomorrow's dinner, it's a celebration for Yong Qing's 21th birthday, big boy now,

to my Yong Qing Ah Yeh:

~HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!~ ( in advance)
have a great birthday!

don't forget to invite us again to ur engagement party *wink*

omg!! I have very strong urge to go shopping! I want to shop till i drop!

I think i've turned to be more girlie after i've meet up with some girls, now i wish i have lots and lots of clothes, accessories, shoes ( lol i've been crazy bout heels, bought 4 in a go and i still couldn't stop looking at shoes, wonder if i have so many legs to wear them. )

and i'm planning what should i bring back to uk such as :

food, food and food (don't really like western food, mind you the chinese food in uk sux)
clothes!!!! and many many more

can't list all of them down cz it's too much, probably need to ship??

but the main point of this post is : I WANT TO SHOP, I NEED MONEY, I AM SOOOO BROKE! :(

stressed!!! nervous!

it's less than 24 hours to my exam and i'm in the library, fighting against time, preparing for my battle of the year.

lots of thoughts running through my low capacity mind, feeling regret for not being able to answer all the question in past year paper. i knew i don't have to score 100% of the exam yet i feel bad not being able to step in the exam hall with confidence, but i know these are my faults, no one to blamed but myself.

I'm feeling very very nervous right now...i start to act like a child, hoping to run away from all these exams. u can tell that:

I A.M T.E.R.R.I.F.I.E.D!!!!

i knew there's no point whinning like an old woman now but i just can't help it..i wanna run away, i don't want to face the failure.

perhaps i'm too spoilt when i was a kid, so i always have this ridiculous thoughts in me:

"how good if i could turn back time? If I could, i would never want to grow up. If that's possible, I would stop the time machine from running, and freeze every single happy moment in life...if i could.."

Zzzzz,i'm day dreaming again...someone please wake me up??

I'm such a baby~